Update..

I had my endocrinolgist appiontment yesterday.. And it for the most part went as I expected it to. Except when they got some of my lab results back.. They fould that my liver enzymes are high. So today I had an ultrasound done on my liver to see what is causing that. I am praying that everything turns out normal, but we'll see. The doc did put me on Tapazole, but since my liver is out of whack, I can't take it until they figure out what is wrong with that. So I can continue nursing for at least the next few days. :-) I did go to Target today after my ultrasound and purchased some bigger bottles for Peyton when I can no longer nurse her. I feel like I am falling apart. I can honestly say I have never been so scared & felt so helpless. I don't know what is going on in my body, and right now I am not being treated for anything but my racing heart. Oh yeah, my resting heart rate is 130 bpm. No wonder I am so shaky & tired all the time.

I will post again when I hear something from my doc.. Hopefully it will be soon. Stace

So sad

I went through Peyton's clothes this afternoon, and boy I am sad. She has grown out of her 0-3 month clothes already! I loved some of those clothes so much, that she didn't actually wear about half of the ones she had. Oops. Luckily my sister is expecting a baby girl in June so I am sure I will see some of my fave's again since I am giving her almost all of Peyton's things. I have selected a few articles that are special, or that I just couldn't part with, but the rest are being passed down to Olivia. :-) Isn't it amazing how fast babies grow? Peyton was 7 lbs 6 oz when she was born, when she left the hospital she was 6 lbs 12 oz.. At her 2 month check up she was 12 lbs 14 oz! Crazy.

I am heading into my last month of Maternity leave too. WOW! The end of March will be so bittersweet. Sweet because we will be celebrating our 7th wedding anniversary, and Madalynn Grace's 6th birthday in DISNEYLAND! Bitter because my last day at home is March 31st. Ah, life goes on doesn't it... I am so grateful that I will have had 4 1/2 months off my job to care for our precious Peyton Leigh.

We are changing the girls' bedrooms too. Maddy & Alex are getting a redecorated room with bunkbeds, and Peyton is FINALLY moving into her room/office/playroom.. Hey we only have a 3 bedroom house. The computer has to go somewhere! Since she gets her "own" room, she gets the computer along with it. I found some killer deals on all 3 girls' bedding, Maddy & Alex are getting Polka dots, and Peyton is getting purple butterfly's. We are planning on having the big girls spend the night with the grandparents one weekend and doing the makeover then so that when they get home there room will be all done. :-) I can't wait!

I have an appointment on this Thursday with my Endocrinologist to talk about my thyroid.. I am hoping that he will provide me with some insight as to what I should do. If he firmly suggests for me to go on the meds and stop nursing that is what I will do.. If that's the case, anyone wanna buy a $300 breast pump? :-) Hey I'll give ya a deal! We'll see what he says.

That's all for now.. Hope you are all doing well. Stace

Horrible, just horrible!

I had my thyroid injetions today. And all I can say is, horrible, just horrible. I actually cried. Alot. It hurt so incredibly bad. She told me that for them to be truly effective I need to get them done, once or maybe even twice a week. I honestly can not imagine doing it ever again, let alone later this week. She didn't even numb it at all! She just took the needle & stuck it in my neck. Then, when I was crying so much she grabbed my hands, and stuck both of them, telling me it would calm me down. All that did was make my hand break out in a rash & swell up. She ended up only doing one side of my thryoid since it was just way to intense for me to withstand having the other side done. I didn't see my normal Naturalpath doc, and I really didn't like this new one at all. If this doesn't make me feel better, I have decided that it will be time for me to see my endocrinologist, so I can start on Tapazol. Which breaks my heart because I really want to continue nursing for a lot longer. But my health is more important to me & my family then it is for me to continue nursing Peyton. She has had almost 3 months now of nursing, which has been great for her. So we will see how I start feeling.

My dentist appointment had to get reschedualed due to the doc being double booked. In a way I was ok with it, especially since she is going to take $50 off my bill, but on the other hand I was all ready geared up for a day full of ickiness.. And to get them all done and over with. oh well.

Thanks for all your thoughts today! Stace

Ick

Tomorrow I am going to have an Ick day. Yes, I said an Ick day. I get to get up in the morning and drop Peyton off so I can go to the dentist to have 3 fillings replaced. So fun.. THEN I get to go to my Naturalpathic Doc to have injections in my thyroid. Yup, needles in my neck. Oh goody. I guess if the injections make me feel better they will be worth it.. So here's to hopin they work.

Today was a fun day, I went to New to You consignement to sell my maternity clothes, half of which they deemed not good enough for resale. Which really annoyed me. Most of them are Gap, Old Navy, or Mimi Maternity.. Which are all nice clothes. Oh well. Then I went to the community center to sign Maddy up for Spring soccer. After that, I picked Madikins up from school and we all trooped to the grocery store. The girls were so good at the store not begging for anything. I was very proud of them. After that I went to Subway and bought lunch for the 3 of us who eat normal food, and we headed to the park for a cold cold cold picnic. The girls really didn't mind the cold once they could start playing on the playground. We were the only ones there.. Big shock. But it was nice to get some fresh air. I am really loving being home with my girls. I wish I could stay home with them always, but alas we have bills to pay. Uncle Sam's generous return won't last forever. (I say generous.. Which is a joke.. It was our money to begin with, but it was nice to get some back)

I hope I didn't sound to Negitive Nancy this post. I just wanted all of you who care to know what a fun day I am going to have tomorrow. Ciao

Relaxation

I had a massage today, and it felt so good. Especially since I could lie on my stomach. I haven't had a massage since 2 weeks before Peyton was born and I needed it! It is so nice to have insurance that covers massages. I left Peyton, my little sidekick, with my mom, and had an hour of peace & quiet.

Trav & I are going on our 1st date since a month before Peyton was born tomorrow night too. We are going to go to dinner and to see Fools Gold. I don't know where we will end up for dinner, but I really don't care. It's going to give us some great time together so that we can talk, probably about the kids, but hey they are for the most part our world.. It's a natural subject for us. It will be the first time I will be leaving Peyton for more then 2-3 hours at one time as well.

Speaking of Peyton, she is getting so big! I can't believe that she is 2 1/2 months already! I am so blessed to have another month & a half off work so that I can spend as much time with her as possible. She has found her hands. It is so cute, she will look at them, put them in her mouth, pull her own hair.. And she is talking so much too. I am going to attach a little movie clip I took with my camera (that's why it is so pixily). It shows how much she is talking now. I love it! (oh don't mind me sounding like a complete dork either.. All for the love of a baby)

I'm a mess...

I am a complete mess right now! My thryoid is overproducing like crazy, causing me to drop 35 lbs since Peyton has been born, I am dizzy, shaky, weak, and I passed out the other day. I don't feel comfortable carrying Peyton down the stairs because my legs are so weak & shaky. To top it off my left booh booh has a large lump in it from a clogged milk duct causing an infection to which has produced a fever, and it hurts like heck! I am now going to be on 6 different kinds of medicines. 5 of which I am taking 3x a day. The worst part about it is they are not working. I don't want to stop nursing Peyton yet, and I am using all these "natural" medicines so that I don't have too. Why oh why can't I just feel normal again! Anyways.. I am done complaining.

On a much happier note, we have everything paid for for Disneyland! I am SO excited to take my beautiful daughters to Disneyland next month. We are flying out March 22nd, returning on March 29th. We are hitting up Disneyland, California Adventures, Universal Studios, and Sea World. I am hoping to meet up with my oldest friend Susanne while down there. She has been my friend since the 2nd grade! She was my Maid of Honor as well. She lives down in Cali with her Hubby and son Josh.

Peyton is up from her nap now, so I best be going. Thanks for checking in!

Slumber Party, Super Bowl, & the Beach

So this last weekend, my oldest daughter Maddy went to her very first slumber party! I can not believe how fast she is growing up. Pretty soon she will be driving. Anyways, she had a great time, and we did not get a phone call to pick her up. The next morning when we arrived to get her, she was so excited. She told me that they got to stay up until 9:30! And they watched both High School Musical, and High School Musical II. It was quite the night for her.

After we picked Maddy up, we drove out to Warrenton to see our friends at the beach for the SuperBowl, GO ELI!, and to stay the night. We had a great time visiting with them, and even though it was wet out we managed to make it to the beach, the Astoria Tower, a new playground, and to a yummy lunch before we headed home. I will try to post some pictures in a few days from our weekend.

Oh, Peyton is now 2 months old! She had her 2 month check up and she is 12lbs 14 oz, and 23 1/2 inches long. She is in the 95% for both. Her pediatrician said that she is farsighted, so that is why she doesn't focus on me, but at the pictures on the walls. Makes sense now. I am a big blurry blob to her. :-( The good news is that he said that it should resolve on its own.

My sister found out yesterday that she is having a little girl too. Her name is Olivia Ann. I am SO excited to be an aunt, and I think it is so cool that Peyton will have a girl cousin her age. They are going to be the very best of friends! Congrats Charity & Mike!

Looking Back...

These are just a few of the snapshots I had taken of my big girls a couple of years ago. I can not believe how much they have grown & changed, yet at the same time, stayed the same. Maddy still loves to pose, and Alex still has that beautiful smile. Looking at these pictures has made me appreciate everything we have been given even more then I already do. I am looking forward to seeing what all 3 of my beautiful daughters do with their lives as they grow.